Sick

FTM!!

You know when you tell someone you’re unique and they just nod and smile because we are ALL unique in our own ways, blah, blah, blahblah?

Thursday started out just brilliantly. The gardener came to take care of the yard, I hid because the dog has discovered digging in the dirt and that generally means she’s up rooted something really pretty and I can’t keep plants alive anyway so…

All completely, well normal I suppose. Hubby had a tummy ache and laid down for a bit, I got bored so I started building a dragon, then took a break from that to play fetch with the dog while listening to music on my tablet.

Once pup got tired and graciously laid down (by this I mean she laid on her back with all her legs in the air very lady like) I laid down for a moment on the floor at the foot of the bed on the pups pillows and cushions. I then decided to play Disney Magic Kingdom (may have mentioned this game before, check it out if you have Disney park love), which was fine, nothing to annoying this time…although Price Phillip still irks me with that stupid smug look of his.

Then at 3 pm almost on the nose while muttering about Mulan my right nostril turned on and dosed the front of my shirt with clear salty liquid. This isn’t a new thing sadly. It’s happened a couple of times in the past, the first time it lasted MONTHS before I found a way to make it stop without visiting the doctor. Also, pun not intended.

It usually is my right nostril that leaks for no reason at all. Like I said it’s a clear liquid and yes, this time it was salty. The leak stops if I look straight and keep my chin up. Since this had been something I have gone through before I didn’t fret it at all. Instead I got up, grabbed a container to catch the fluid in and sat on the bed for a couple of minutes.

I was trying to remember where the medicine that fixes this leak ended up since I hadn’t used it for a long while. When I remembered I got up and walked down the hall.

And this, as they say is when the un-fun started.

You know the feeling when your ears pop because of change in altitude? Or if you grab your nose and blow you can make your ears pop and the interesting noise that can make?

I don’t like my ears popped. The world is way too loud when my ears are popped and I get anxious quickly.

But as air rushed through my right sinus into my ear all I knew was pain. Horrible, severe pain that brought me slowly down to my knees. It was one of those pains that as soon as it happens your eyes focus on some distant thing as you try desperately to figure out WHAT THE FUCK is trying to kill you now? It wasn’t just sharp, it was sharp stabby and then let’s stick around and poke a bit but not really throb type of pain.

I sat on my heels for a minute before trying to get up and instantly regretting it for it seemed that sinus wasn’t completely filled with air just yet and wanted to be, so crackle sound, instant pain this time a lot worst and enough for me to start to hyperventilate trying to get the pain to stop.

They say to breathe through pain as it helps. I know this. I’ve ALWAYS known this. But for some lovely reason, when I’m in the type of pain that I really should BREATHE through I tend to hyperventilate instead. Because brain that’s why.

This is when hubby comes up from behind me and asks what type of pain I was experiencing. I try to describe it, he helps me to slowly get up and get to the couch without any more pain. While just sitting innocently on the couch, my sinus draws another breathe and this time, the neighbors know something is up.

Seriously, I have had many injuries and have gone through many different levels of pain. I’ve given birth to a 7lbs 6oz baby boy without an epidural (it was only a four hour labor which apparently is pretty good for the first kid). I feel like I have a pretty good grasp of how well I can handle pain and usually it’s top notch.

Thursday decided I needed a pain management check up in a bad way. And of course with such severe pain came vomiting. I hate vomiting. I don’t know a single saneish person who likes vomiting.

Pain.

Vomit.

Pain.

Vomit.

Repeat.

Next thing I’m aware of is that we’re heading to see the ear, nose and throat doc who we saw when something (a piece of red wax) was blocking my right ear (Thanks Trouble).

He made me lay down and put some drops in my nose then turn my head to the right and open and close my mouth to get the medicine into my ear canal and lessen the pain. Which worked wonderfully, I sat up, my nose still running that lovely clear fluid but in less pain then I had been in.

Doc goes back to finish up with the patient he is with and a minute or two later, my sinus breathes (for serious lack of a better explanation) and I immediately go to the restroom to puke and try not to scream and scare other people. I don’t care what language you speak, when someone screams in pain the message is clear and can be quite frightening. It’s that normal got to help the person in pain thing that most humans have ingrained into them.

Once I do get in doc checks my ears out and starts talking and asking questions that of course I am in no mind to answer even though it seems like such an easy thing to do. Hubby is translating my responses for the doc. Now the doc speaks English quite well, what hubby is translating is my mushy attempt at vowel sounds as well as hand gestures and shrugs.

Sadly for doc, what takes over at this point is the nausea. He then tells me to keep my eyes open as it will lessen the dizzy feeling and nausea. He also does something with smells that doesn’t last very long as one of them makes me well, vomit.

So the diagnose is that my right ear decided to catch a cold which is causing my most favorite of conditions VERTIGO. But the type where you have to keep your eyes OPEN to not get dizzy and nauseated.

Oh hey, for anyone who has ever suffered from vertigo, ask for a Vontrol shot. Why? Because it is a drug that is used as prevention and control of vertigo: VONTROL is indicated for the prevention and control of peripheral vertigo as the of Ménière’s disease, labyrinthitis, otitis media, the middle and inner ear surgery, trauma to the vestibular apparatus. VONTROL may be useful for control in cases such as central vertigo: basilar-vertebral artery insufficiency, certain strokes and their aftermath and trauma involving the central nervous system.

I had vertigo when we lived in the US. The BEST they could do was give me pills to take to keep from vomiting, that I COULD NOT TAKE BECAUSE I KEPT VOMITING THEM BACK UP.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK UNITED STATES???? I AM IN MEXICO WHERE THEY GAVE ME A TINY SHOT THAT IN ABOUT 30 MINUTES OR MORE I NO LONGER WANTED TO VOMIT. Then they gave me pills to take additionally to keep the vertigo/vomiting action down which works well thanks.

I’m starting to understand more and more why people go to other countries for medical care. United States likes to boast that it has the best of everything for their citizens. WHERE WAS MY VONTROL SHOT? HUH? WHERE??? Of course maybe that “everything” part is just for those rich citizens. Even though the shot cost only 200 pesos. That’s $11 USD people. Eleven dollars.

I have a cold. In my ear. My nose isn’t running, I’m not stuffy or coughing or having all those normal “I’ve got a damn cold” symptoms and absolutely NONE of that common cold shit. It’s not an ear infection either as there is no real problems with full blown infection. I am taking naxifelar for anti inflammation but most of the meds I’m taking are for vertigo and allergies.

Afrin Spray nasal infantile -basically the child’s version of Afrin Spray.

Vontrol Ampolletas (ampoules) -the anti vertigo shot every hospital should have cabinets of because vertigo fucking sucks!!

Arlevert -tablets to take to keep the vertigo away.

Plantival -treatment of nervousness, restlessness and insomnia

Serc -more anti-vertigo meds in the tablet variety.

Naxifelar -treatment for infections

Dilarmine -allergy medication

Basically I am unique as not many people can and do get colds in their damn ears. Today is the first day that I’ve actually eaten anything (grilled cheese for the win) and haven’t at all felt nauseous. I drank some coffee put on some shorts and have not cringed in pain from moving my head too much. With the exception of now it feels like my right ear is stuffed up, I’m doing good. But, uhg.

Until next time, FTM is one I created for myself. It’s a twist on the FML- Fuck My Life. I like my life for the most part, but there are moments to which I do not so the FTM – Fuck This Moment was born. This is how these things are born people. Go out and spread the alphabet soup deliciousness!

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Who knew?

And then

Who would have ever guessed that being sick is just bad for your overall health?

Many things have been happening as I am sure you are well aware. You don’t need me to tell you the news that’s more in likely blasted across your telly, inboxes and news feed. I’ve limited the amount of PTBP (Pretending to be president) news I take in because it was having an adverse effect on my mental health.

In it’s place I’ve taken up the old habit of reading a good book. I figured if I wasn’t going to be adulting for a few days, I might as well catch up on my reading. Sadly, I have a lot of catching up to do!

I have always been a physical book person. I love the smell, the feel and the overall aspect of a physical book, but it’s in digital that I find most of the new books I could be interested in. And yes, I find them for free as the prices of ebooks is almost as high as a paperback and sometimes even hardbacks. If it’s a new series or author I have never read before I don’t want to be paying high prices to see if I like it or not.

I have ALWAYS been this way about books. Before ebooks however, I’d check the book out from the library (which of course was always free unless you keep a book longer then you were meant to or loose it.) and if I ended up liking the author I’d look for more titles and more in likely end up buying a few as well.

I’m not sure many people get this however. Hubby has always wondered why if I can find the digital book for free, I had to have a physical copy as well. I have quite the library of physical books. I have almost all of the books Stephen King has written. I have quite a few Anne Rice’s as well. Including her new Vampire Chronicles one: Prince Lestat and the Realms of Atlantis. Although I’m struggling through this one.

I remember when people were in a state of panic thinking the physical book was on it’s death bed and perhaps for awhile it was. But it seems now that the ebook craze is leveling out and people are getting use to the new technology the death of the physical book isn’t so imminent although not without some sacrifices (RIP Boarders). The ebook phenom has come to a lull as the ebook readers have become, well….dated. Gone is the need or desire to have a electronic that caters JUST to ebooks. Kindle? Naw, who cares? I never had a Kindle. I did have a Sony eReader, in fact I had a few of them. But then, someone made an app that allowed you to read any book on any android device.

Then Amazon, the great innovator of products that they are, decided that just would not do so they locked down their version of books so that the only way you could read them is with their eReader or app. They still have that lock and people are still cracking them. Most of my library comes from unlocked Amazon Kindle books.

And now books on tape are making a big jump, of course it’s now known as Audible. I’ve never been a big fan of listening to books. Even when I had vertigo and couldn’t even open my eyes I wasn’t too much of a fan (even less so when my phone decided to assign different parts of a book as my ringtones and notifications), although I did recently enjoy Stephen King’s 6.22.63 read by Craig Wasson. 30 hours of someone reading to me isn’t usually my cup of anything, but I did actually enjoy it. I’ve read the book myself and watched the mini series but Craig did a wonderful job of reading the story. He used different voices and really brought it to life, which I didn’t expect.

I guess I expected the audio books to be boring. No idea why that would be in my head but yeah.

No longer do people want a electronic that does only a single thing. Not in the age of smartphones doing everything but wipe our asses for us (careful, there may soon be an app for that)! I have a couple of tablets in addition to my now dated Samsung Galaxy S4 phone. One is a windows tablet (Nextbook Flexx 11.6) and the other is an android based tablet (RCA Voyager). I use the nextbook to play games like Disney Magic Kingdom, Talking Tom Gold Run, Dragon Mania Legends as well as browsing online, checking mail…small stuff like that. I rarely use my RCA but I do have FBReader on it that I of course use to read my ebooks. I also have Jarvis and a few little games (Panda Pop, Suicide Squad, Star Wars Puzzle Droids). Not to mention Tony Stark. Got to love Tony Stark (and of course Robert Downey Jr)! There are a few other odds and ends on the RCA, but it ended up mainly being a ebook reader with a few added entertainment should I get tired of reading. It’s also small, 7″ screen that can easily fit in a bag. Nextbook is 11″ and has the removable keyboard and is much like the coveted Microsoft Surface without the heart stopping price tag. Picked the Nextbook up from Walmart for a whopping $56. The RCA was $35.

It would seem that physical books are making a comeback! Although not entirely for why a normal person may think. Apparently they can now be considered art. Works of beauty and that’s before you read them, if you are even allowed to do so that is. Some of the newer physical books have in lost their magical beginnings. The quality of paper, glued pages instead of sewn, hard backs having lackluster covers outside of their removable covers. Although apparently all that is coming back.

Books are now supermodels? Animals are reading them, they are featured in landscapes, posed with food, flowers, gravestones, just about anything you’d like to imagine. They have become objects to color match your outfits with or if you’re so inclined color clash.

I get buying books because you like books. I do this often, but I also like to read them. They’re not just shelf space fillers when I don’t have enough Star Wars, dragons or Harley Quinn to fill the space (which I totally do, but I actually make room for books as they are awesome). I don’t want or need sexy looking books. I mean WTF? I have books I have enjoyed reading on my shelves. They are there because I want them to be, because people can ask me about them and I can tell them what I thought and offer to let them borrow it. They can be quite an effective ice breaker. There is not much you can say about a book that’s only there to be pretty.

“What is that book about? It looks like it could be interesting.”

“That? Oh I have no idea. I only put it there because it’s pretty.”

Is it just me? Am I perhaps missing something here by being born before eReaders became a thing? Do shop owners really have to resort to something so technical in order to get people in the shop to look at books as having electronic poem readings on National Poetry Day where they can be heard only if customers wish to listen?

Does that even make sense?

I know authors still go around promoting their books at bookstores and have signings, readings and what have you. I have a couple of them as friends on Facebook. The last couple of Anne Rice books I’ve bought are signed, but sadly not because I went to the bookstore and met with her. Barnes and Noble gave me the ability to get this without even leaving my house. Which also makes a signed book less valuable.

I can live with or without ebooks. As long as I have physical books it doesn’t matter to me. I am a little miffed that people are now using them as decoration only pieces. Oh sure, some might get read, but it’s a little depressing when the reason something is coming back is less about it’s original usage and more about aesthetics. The ebook is loosing popularity because you can’t take a selfie with an eReader? PATHETIC!

And if you’re interested where this came from, you can read all about it on your own.

And then there is this.

Until next time, curl up with a damn good book. I don’t care if it’s an ebook or a physical one, if you’ve read it a million times before or are going through it for the first time. Hell it doesn’t even matter if you’re reading it or listening to it as long as you are enjoying a story that is more than two pages long and brings you joy. More people need to read books. Hollywood for a start. A great way to pass the time not adulting when you’re sick. Or because you want to.

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